Well, reality is hitting. I have something like 4 weeks left of my maternity leave. I hope I'm not screwing myself by writing this on the internet, but I'm going to do it anyway:
I hate my job, have hated it for a long time, and there is no way in hell I'm going to sit in a cubicle instead of being with my baby. They have agreed to let me work part time from home for 1 month, then full time from home for 2 months after that.
Here's the thing, though: I think the part time thing will work out okay, but I'm also trying to get some contract work that I can do from home, and I can't do that and work full time. The contract work is maintaining websites and possibly writing a user manual for a new software company. I also post things on eBay for Erick's shop and will be maintaining the CB Perkins online store, when it finally gets going. All of these little things will eventually support us, but right now, I'm just getting started, and it won't be enough for a while.
So what to do?
Reality is hitting, and I need to figure something out soon. I'm considering going back to my other career, haircutting, and doing that a couple nights a week so that Erick can take care of the baby.
I think I'll also tell my work (after the month of part time, or sometime during it) that I'm going to quit unless they let me continue to work part time. See how that strikes them. Maybe they'll be more willing to work with me if it's part time or nothing. I just can't go back to full time. There is no way.
I hate having to figure this out, but I'm also grateful that I do have options. It's kind of exciting, too, to have the opportunity to do something different. I know God has a plan for us, since He told us that before I got pregnant. I'm just trying to figure out what that might be.
Anyone have suggestions?